Confessions and Life Sorting

Dear Internet Friends,

I’ve something embarrassing to admit. It’s only logical that I share this with you here because it’s quite relevant to the recent focuses of my blog.

I ‘unveganised’ from PVP2 early - two days early, to be exact. So instead of 7 full days, I only managed 5. I’m ashamed. I feel like I’ve let you guys down as well. I’m getting my act together now.

I hope I’m not making too big a deal out of this. I hope I’m not downplaying this mini failure either. Please just know that I regret it. My only explanation is stress and decline of discipline. By stress, I mean in addition to the unhealthy IB workload and university applications, it was super stressful keeping this vegan thing from my parents. You know how Asian parents are, well - maybe not, but the more meat you eat, the better child you are. My mum especially - she’s been eyeing my habits at dinner every night and questioning my choices throughout the meals. Christ, it’s not enjoyable, nor is it easy to sustain. I didn’t mean to offend anyone by using the word “Christ”. But really, it was stressful. She didn’t notice the first time I tried out Project Vegan! Why now?

So to bring this to a positive note, I’ve decided to tidy my life a little. Too tidy, everyone knows, isn’t ideal. But a little tidy is nice, right? I’ve made a list with brief explanations, and I’d like to share it with y’all:

1. Sort out my school e-mail mailbox. SERIOUSLY OMG.
2. Sleep before midnight EVERY NIGHT. SERIOUSLY OMG. AGAIN. REALLY. #IBLIFE
3. Actually, uh, do homework. So I don’t have to rush work during registration every morning.
4. Manage my time more wisely by (i) working during free periods; (ii) by ‘working’ I mean WORKING. A.K.A. All things not YouTubeInstagramFacebookDancingWithTheStarsSoYouThinkYouCanDancePinterestEatingEatingEatingPillowWars... Yes, Pillow Wars. I’ll explain in another post in the very near future. I’m a genius... I said I’ll explain. Oh yeah, back on topic: (iii) by not spending an hour (or more) after school every day watching videos. I mean, I need to keep up with the YouTube world, but an hour a day, especially these next few months as a final year IB student, is downright stupid. I said that. I cannot be stupid any longer.
5. Trust more people. I probably trust four people in my life right now: my mum, dad, brother, and myself. Is that sad, that I don’t trust any friends 100%? Actually, make that six people. I’ve got two verysuperincredibly best friends. They’re great. Anyway, my point is, I don’t open up very easily; I generally don’t allow people to see my vulnerable, human side, and I think it may be time for me to do the exact opposite. I think that letting my guard down every so often will improve my communicability with others and have more people respect my presence... I mean, it’ll be a good way to make new friends. That’s a simpler way to put it. Hah. My existing friends are phenomenal, but I’d also like to strengthen our relationships. But then we’ll all be split up in less than a year, when we are all heading off to uni. So I shouldn’t get too attached to anyone... THIS CONTRADICTION THO. I think I’ll just give it a try. Ayyy
6. Become more flexible. This was a sharp turn from my previous point. But it’ll be so fun! I’m working on the splits. I might have them down my Christmas. I truly hope. I’m working on it! 
7. Handstands. I can do unsupported headstands, but I need handstands now. It will feel so accomplishing. And it’ll strengthen my back and shoulders - fundamental for tiny athletes like myself. And they look cool, ok?
8. Keep on running, swimming, tennis-ing, yoga-ing. I also really want to improve at volleyball.
9. Practise veganism on alternate weeks. I’ll figure out the parent stress thing. I must figure it out. 

You know what this list looks like? A New Year’s Resolutions list. I’m a firm believer in year-round resolutions. I mean, when you identify a problem in your life, fix it immediately - why wait for January to roll around before taking action? Really, why? How does on stand it? A wise fella once said, “If you desire something enough, it should not be classified under ‘things you desire’; rather, it should be under ‘things you are working on’ or ‘things I already have and love’.” Just kidding. I probably built that quotation with a collation of Instagram captions, YouTuber rants and inspirational school assemblies ;)

So not to bore you, here’s another chunk of information about my life (not that that’s fascinatingly fascinating but...): I’m going on a health kick :D I’m so excited. Since the last two cross-country races were cancelled due to (i) typhoon 8; and then (ii) high pollution warning (wOW this makes HK sound like a disaster zone... Yes, I’m aware of the earthquaketornadodroughthurricane areas on (in?) the west coast of North America, but ‘high pollution warning’... Really?), I haven’t been training in a few weeks. And I’ve been kinda less *ahem* disciplined and straying from a good-for-you diet. It’s true what they say - you are what you eat. I’ve been feeling less energised and snacking uncontrollably. I’m so set on getting my act back together now.

I hope this was worth reading. I certainly freed a gush of stress while composing this. Jan out.